Field Trip

I went to see Brian yesterday and had a lot of fun. He tried to make me less nervous to conduct in front of people by showing me how fun it actually is. However, I am so afraid to mess up or that I'm going to forget what I'm doing. I don't want to be the reason that everyone gets confused and the song ends up falling apart. I don't wanna frustrate people that already know what they're doing. I'm just psyching myself out, though because no one is going to judge me. They know I know my music, and that I am just learning something knew.

Brian has a graceful way of conducting, just like my mother does, and someday I wish to be as good as they are. I would love to conduct a big choir somewhere down the line because I'm told u get a rush standing up there and actually doing it!

EVIDENCE

I finally figured out how to make a brochure using word! You go to file and down to page setup. Then, you change the section that says pages from normal to book fold. I started working on my brochure again now that I actually know what I'm doing. I almost finished the cover page yesterday, but it still needs a little work.

Besides that, I am treaching my mom and brother 2 songs called "Bless the Broken Road" and "Light Your World." I can't wait until we have everything together! I have to go through my videos and see which ones I'm going to incorporate in my presentation, and I need to print out my pictures for the collage I plan on making.

I can't wait to see how everything turns out. It's almost the final stretch, and I'm getting kind of nervous! I hope everything goes according to planned!

Back to Work

The end of the school year is coming, it's getting hot out, and pools will be opening soon. This weekend is Memorial Day weekend, so that means it's time to go back to work. I have a class on Saturday to renew my CPR certification, but after that I'm good to go. I like being a lifeguard, yet this summer is supposed to be extremely hot, which is really going to suck. I hope that I get put at one steady pool for most of the summer because I'm tired of having to figure out how I'm getting to and from all these different pools. Last year, I didn't quite mind, considering Sam Messner was my supervisor, and if she needed me elsewhere, she would make sure I made it there okay. I'm ready to go back as soon as possible, though. I could really use the money. =]

EVIDENCE

I started working on "Bless the Broken Road," with my mom and brother. I am so excited to be in charge for a change! We're making pretty good progress so far, but of course, it could use some work. You can make anything better with practice. Also, I'm trying redo my brochure because the first draft I did didn't come out right. I'm sure I'll get it down within a few days. Some things just take time. Finally, I've been camcording some more of my progress, and the more practice I've had the better I have become. I swear I will figure out how to put the videos up soon! Music is my world, and no matter what I will always take an interest in it!

LIFE

I think I've decided that I'm going to take a year off of school and get a full time job. Even though I really wanted to go straight to college, it doesn't look like it's gonna happen. I may take a few classes over that year, but that's probably it. I scheduled an interview at a school called Sanford Brown tomorrow, and now I have to call back and cancel. I always thought I would have my parents support when figuring out college stuff, but either way they just don't seem to be happy.

Besides that, the only other thing that has been on my mind is how much I'm going to miss choir. My last choir concert was last week and I couldn't help breaking down and crying several times that night. Choir is or was my life, but now it's time to move on to something new.

Sponsor

I went to see Brian today and since my project is in less than a month, we started working on the songs I'm going to be teaching my mom and brother. It should be relatively easy after I pick up on everything because right now, I wouldn't know exactly where to start. I think I'm gonna run it with all of us first and see how everyone does sight reading. Then, I will go through it part by part. After that, maybe we will adjust the dynamics. I can't wait until I am finished, so I can hear what I have accomplished.

My Choice

My boyfriend leaves for school tomorrow! I'm so excited for him, yet I know I'm going to miss him so much! 3 hours away isn't that bad, so why am I freaking out? Well, anyways, I'm not coming to school tomorrow because I'm going with him and his parents up to his school to drop him off. It's going to be so weird leaving him there, but I'm glad he decided to take such a big step and go back to school.

Besides that, I need to just focus on school and finishing out my senior year. It's almost over and I don't wanna mess up on the final stretch. That would really stink, and I'm definitely not going through this whole year again. I have to work on bringing up my math grade because I fell behind. I missed one set of notes and ever since then I don't understand any of the new stuff we're learning. I asked for extra help from a classmate, though, so we'll see if that helps. I can't fail math for the year or I won't pass! I'm normally really good at math, but I guess Statistics just isn't my subject.